Citrawarna Malaysia 2012

So it was Citrawarna last Saturday. Didn't expect it to be that interesting on the actual day. We were like celebrities for 8 minutes. People all taking pictures of us, they make up for us, they video us. And when we dance for that few minutes, all the medias flashing their camera. To be honest, I did really enjoy that spotlight on me for a moment. It's not something you get to do everyday. The training was terrible at first, because of the time and everything but who knows it turns out to be one of the best experience in my life. We didn't take much pictures and sadly our officers forgot to video us. Hopefully I will find some in YouTube.

Finish that event, coming up is tutorials and assignments. To be honest, level 5 paper is not easy at all. Even the assignments can kill me. And now we're required to do tutorial questions?! And show it during every tutorial? This is so torturing, I barely had enough sleep. Leadership camp tomorrow and I haven't pack a single thing. Life is so hectic now but I'm some sort enjoying it. But at times, I think I need to slow down a little, relax and take a look around. Not much to blog for now, maybe after my leadership camp. Thanks for reading! :)

A Perfect Date

Have you ever dream of your very own perfect date with the guy you have a big crush on? Or even if you're not having any crush on anyone now, have you ever think of how your perfect date will be? I came across the word "dream" a lot recently. One tutor ask us about our dream and he said you can dream about anything. Don't be afraid to dream, don't worry that people gonna say that you're dream is impossible, it's not realistic, your dreams won't come true. Because it's a dream. It doesn't have limitations. I have dreams on almost every single thing in my life. My family, my job, my home, my car, my future, everything. But there's no need to say everything out here, I'm gonna just write about my dream of a perfect date. You will need a little imagination while reading :)

Waking up to the sound of morning birds chipping just outside the window. I can sense it's gonna be a very good day. I ran downstairs because mom said that I got a big box of gift by him. I opened up and saw a very beautiful dress with accessories and a pair of heels. A note says "Wear this, I'm gonna pick you up at 5pm". I call my best friend over and we talk and talk and talk endlessly about how the date's going to turn out. As I'm getting ready, I can hear doorbell ringing. Dad answered the door. I can hear them talking downstairs. I walk down and we headed out. He bring me to a movie, a romantic love story. On the way to the mall for movie, it's a little awkward and shy between but we both feel butterflies in our stomach. After the movie, he drove me to one very romantic Italian restaurant, he made a booking. The people there are expecting us. We got a window seat. The night view is very breathtaking. He knows exactly what I like so he ordered earlier for me. Food came, we talk about our life and interests, everything. He surprised me with a bracelet and put it on for me. After the dinner, we walk around the streets, without talking much. Just enjoy the cold wind, and enjoy having each other by side. He sent me home after, ended the perfect date with a perfect hug. Lying on the bed, thinking of the perfect date I just had, I got a text from him. Saying how happy he was about the date. 

This was actually inspired by things that I've seen and experienced throughout my life. Little of it was inspired by what I've seen in movies and what I've read in books. While imagining this perfect date, I actually recalled I've experienced something similar. And that keeps me wondering a while, did my dream of a perfect date came true? I don't know. Maybe I should blog about that date and you guys can judge for me :)

Hope you guys enjoy reading this. Girls, go dream about your life and realizes your dream. Make your dreams come true! :) 

LOVE?

I always ask, why do some people date only once and found the right one. Why some people dated so many times, put their heart all out for so many times, got hurt so many times and still not found the one? I guess life is really unfair. Just last week, I was having International Marketing class with Mr. Yip. He's a part time tutor and he rocks. You don't always get lecturer that tell stories and jokes, and speak very excitedly so you can feel the excitement. Most of the lecturers bore us to death because they speak in a monotone, even stories and jokes are in monotone. So Mr. Yip was talking about something and all sudden he relates it to relationship. He said guys should know how to invest in a relationship. I don't really like what he's saying but it's a fact. I don't like because he makes it sounds like relationship is just another thing that you should calculate, plan and think properly. In a way yes, but not in terms of calculating the money and time. One thing I agree is if a guy chooses to invest that much amount of money on a girl, then he should really make sure that she's the one. Because you won't wanna invest that much of hard earn money on girls that you won't marry in future. That's why to me, playboy is just plain stupid. Guy that have few girlfriends is even stupider. Before and after my break up, I heard a lot stories of couple splitting. Not on and off puppy love, they are like stable couples that dated for years, on their way to marriage, it's just matter of time, all sudden they break up and shock everyone around. What triggers me to write this is something similar happened to someone around me recently. All I can say is I truly understand your feeling when you say all the future that you've planned suddenly gone. There's nothing much you can do now, my advice is just be strong and we'll be here for you to cheer you up always. I'm gonna tell you the same thing people told me, you will get over the thunderstorm and see rainbow. And as for me, it's more and more obvious that there is no 100 percent in this world. You cannot be sure that you will marry this guy you're with now until you really marry the guy. And you cannot say you're gonna be with him forever until forever ends. You cannot be certain of stuffs that have not happen. But you can dream. You can definitely dream of your future with him, just hope that when dreams don't come true, you're still able to dream again. To all couples in the world, stay happy together. You won't wanna experience the heartbreak, it's not fun, it's not easy. Yes, it makes you stronger but it also turns you into someone that not easily believe in love anymore. 

P/S : Happy Mother's Day :)

Anything, Everything

Haven't been blogging for a week now. A little update on what happen recently was Last Sunday,  5th March, I decided to join one of the KPMG team's CSR Project. They chose a farm, named Furry Friends Farm, located in Kundang, Selangor. They need volunteers to help bathe the dogs, cats and maybe rabbits. That was what I was being informed. Waking up very early to reach college at 7.30am. Surprisingly few of my friend joined the CSR Project too. Took us an hour to reach the place and the moment I get down of the car, I can smell the place, obviously there's more than 10 dogs in there because the smell was so wrong. So they divided us into few groups, each taking care of different things. I chose to be in the dog's team. We met the owner of the farm, to my surprise, she's a lady, tinny lady, name Sabrina. And she got a volunteer from Australia name John.

We went in and I found out that there's more than 100 dogs in there and the pathetic place looks like SPCA more than a farm. So I asked about it and yes, it's a place where they pick up stray dogs and cats treat them, and feed them, find them a home. They have also saved numerous abused dogs and cats. They did checkup on all the dogs and cats and separate them into cages, even cats with HIV positive aren't being "put to sleep". They still keep them, feed them, make them happy. Our job there was basically wash all the dog's kennel, clean the poop, clean the floor, everything. To be honest, I thought I'm able to handle the job well without feeling much disgusted by the poop because I had dogs at my home since I was baby, I clean my dog's poop, I bathe them. But because this farm has only few dedicated volunteer, they are not able to clean the kennels. It's a really huge farm. So the poop there might be more than few days, and imagine there's about 10 to 15 dogs in one kennel, some even got more than 20 dogs. It was a horrible experience and I respect those that volunteered, especially John, he's there almost every day, that's what I heard. We scooped the poop and throw all in one plastic bag, it wasn't a pleasant job. It was tiring, dirty and smelly. There's so many flies everywhere, and the dogs are not that clean, I assume they can't bathe all of them because there's really lack of manpower. After scooping all poop, arranging all their stuffs in the kennel, we washed the kennel. My shoe and half of my pants soaked under that dirty water wasn't fun. There's one puppy kennel that I cleaned, smells like dead rat there. I think it was because of the poop being left too long there and flies lay eggs in there. When I wash away the poop, there's tiny white worm which then I googled about it, it's the flies' eggs. I cannot imagine how the pity dogs live there. Then we spray some medicine all around the farm, something deticking?

After all the cleaning, it's time to feed them. It's like National Geographic live. Dog food weigh almost as heavy as me, we carry two bags into one kennel and feed half of the bag. Then we feed the biggest kennel which has more than 20 dogs. That was horrifying. All the hungry dogs jump and jump and jump, follow every path we go, they can almost knock us down. And how do we feed all these dogs? Impossible by bowl because there's too many of them. We pour all the dog's food on the floor in a line so that they can eat without fighting. And pouring it isn't easy because dog's keep scratching the bag of food, some even eat directly from the bag while we're pouring.

Finally when everything done, I get to play with cats for a while. The place those cats stay are much more happier compare to the dogs. They stay indoor, with fans. Cats are really manja and I love both cats and dogs very much. There are some stories about the dogs there. Few dogs have their own kennel. They cannot live with other dogs because they are too fierce, they killed. One Rottweiler named Lucky, was abused by the owner, one day he decided to fight back and ripped the owner's arm, he had to stay in hospital. So the owner decided to poison Lucky, he was saved and that's why he's here. However, he's really fierce now even John dare not to go in. We are not allowed to feed him, John will feed him. He throw the bowl of dog food inside within 5 seconds and quickly run back out. Another dog is Bazda, he's superbly friend with people but not dog. He can kill a dog in a dog fight, he killed one. And also many other dogs, some got hit by a car, some got abused, some without the eye. They are not exactly the nicest dog on earth, but definitely the luckiest one. Because they were saved and live under the care of Sabrina. The love Sabrina had for the dogs is truly amazing. I dare not to say I'm an animal lover in front of her. Because even I never love my dogs they way she love the dogs. I like dogs but I never go to this extent helping the dogs. She is amazing and there's a story behind this. You guys can like her page and read her interview there. Here's the link : https://www.facebook.com/pages/Furry-Friends-Farm-Malaysia/111176202232388

Back home feeling super exhausted and headache to the max because of the weather and everything but it was all worth it. Opened up to a new experience. Thank you God for the opportunity.

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Have I mentioned in my blog before that I'm involved in this Tourism Malaysia thing? It was supposed to be a catwalk training but then when we all start attending the training, we were separated into two section. Girls dance one side, boys dance one side, and some model the props, do a little dance. Dancing in a big group is supposed to be beautiful, fun and exciting. But somehow that's not what I'm feeling doing this, perhaps it's because other people are not committed. They don't really dance it out during training, they absent for training and we have to reform the formation again, they text while the trainers are giving instruction. It's just so annoying. I want this dance to be perfect so that we can minimize the training but these people are not helping. We went to PWTC few days ago for rehearsal. We have to rehearse outside the hall, while rehearsing, I peep inside where almost few hundreds primary and secondary school kids dance. They dance so beautifully, so energetic, so organized, it was really united, especially the dikir barat part. It was really pretty, it makes you wanna dance with them. 

Then it's our turn to go in and arrange our position. One of our college officer told me that this is actually a very big event for Malaysia because people from everywhere will see us. And our segment is the highlight of the event, kids that dance just now are just the opening and finale, they dance in a really really big group, so mistake can't really be noticed. But us are the highlight, it will be only us dancing there and we have so many gaps among each other, one mistake it will be seen. And he also said these people joined but are not committed, late and absent, not focus. It was supposed to be very beautiful. To me, if you agreed to do something, whether you like it or not, you already agreed to do it then just do it la. It's just 2 weeks of training and you are paid for that. It's not high pay but they pay you, so you're indirectly working for them. Trainers even have to please us to dance for them when we are getting paid for the event and every single training. I was just informed that next week we are required to go rehearsal for 3 days at Dataran Merdeka and it will be until very late. To be honest, I wasn't happy about training till 10pm also but I will enjoy every moment so that I don't waste time hating on stuffs I agreed to do at first. After all, we don't always get to perform for thousands of people because not all are gifted with talents and opportunities. Since I was given such opportunities, I will just enjoy it, taking it part of my growing process. And friends that joined this event with me, if you guys happened to read this, I'm sorry for getting you guys into this. I know this wasted a lot of your time and energy. I didn't know the training will take so many days also because I wasn't informed about that. Trainers changed their decisions because even the officer didn't know about this. I'm sorry to involve you guys in this. I just thought we would enjoy this together, have fun together, get crazy together.